to be wide-awake; to be wakeful; to be unable to sleep
to come back; to return; to recur
one's normal condition; one's usual state; keynote (esp. shamisen); proper key
anal; anal sex; anal intercourse; anus
(mumbling) incomprehensibly; while mumbling; mutteringly; murmuringly
vintage awamori; awamori aged in cask for at least three years
to get cloudy; to cloud over; to cloud up; to fog up; to be gloomy; to be clouded (expression)
to squash; to crush; to flatten
all that one has; all that there is; the whole
to give up (a plan or idea); to desist from (doing)
to muster (e.g. one's courage); to call forth; to rouse up; to be enlivened; to be invigorated
to sever; to cut off; to suppress; to eradicate; to abstain (from); to give up
no change; no difference; no unusual events; no accidents; no incidents
to yearn for; to long for; to follow (someone); to idolize (for virtue, learning, status, etc.)
to begin to open; to come out; to smile broadly; to come apart at the seams (clothes)
many times over; often; repeatedly; time after time
to breathe out; to exhale
physiological; physical; visceral; instinctive; in one's guts
if it is not ...; if it does not ...
because ...; for ...; the reason being ...; as for ...; when it comes to ...; regarding ...
sullenly; taciturnly; morosely; taciturn person; uncommunicative person
creepy (feeling); uneasy (feeling); bad (feeling); giving one the creeps; hideous; scaring
to read the situation; to sense the mood
departure; departing (from ...); sending; sent (by ...); engine; counter for gunshots, bursts of gas, etc.
to reconsider; to rethink; to reassess
disappointed love; broken heart; unrequited love; being lovelorn
to regain one's footing; to get back on one's feet; to recover; (of the market) to improve
cold; chilly; cold (attitude, stare, etc.); frigid; composed; cool
to make light of; to ignore; to slight
even if ...; even supposing that ...
to say in a round-about way (not to upset); to cushion the blow; (lit.) to wrap in wafer paper
on the surface; ostensibly; superficially; apparently
big and round (eyes, shaven head, etc.)
to use to the full (one's voice, energy, etc.); to muster all of (one's strength, courage, etc.); to summon all of; to exert fully; to strain (one's voice)
to stick; to get stuck; to be unavailable; to be busy; to be piled up (e.g. of work); to halt (in one's speech)
crackling; cracking; clapping; incessantly (blinking)