dim; hazy; vague; indistinct; faint; fuzzy
to begin (doing); to start (doing)
dream; dream; hope; unrealistic aspiration; daydream; delusion
departure; departing from ...; sent from ...; (a letter, etc.) dated ...; counter for engines (on an aircraft); counter for gunshots, bursts of gas, etc.
to strike; to hit; to beat; to punch
crying loudly; bawling; wailing; crying one's eyes out (without making noise); breaking into a flood of tears; crying buckets
mere shadow of one's former self; having no trace left (of former glories, talent, looks, etc.); unrecognizable (as the person one used to be); unrecognisable
incomprehensible; nonsensical; puzzling; mysterious; meaningless
all (that one has); all (that there is); everything; as much as possible; as much as one can; to the utmost
to leak (urine, feces); to soil one's pants; to dump (untreated waste, sewage, etc.); to discharge (untreated effluent); to leak (information, secrets, etc.); to bleed (a deficit, losses, etc.)
pitiful; heartbreaking; heartrending; touching; tragic; sad
feelings; emotion; compassion; sympathy; passion; affection
to well (up); to gush out (of water); to appear (esp. suddenly) (sweat, tears, etc.); to sweat; to feel emotions (e.g. joy, bravery, etc.); to spring up (e.g. an idea, emotions, clouds)
to put (into); to put away (in); to pay (fees, taxes, etc.); to deliver; to accept (a gift or money); to keep (within a limit); to offer (to a shrine, deity, etc.)
with a feeling of relief; with a sigh of relief; deeply (sigh)
black curtain; wirepuller; mastermind; backroom manipulator
on the way; en route; in the middle of; midway; halfway
to stroke; to caress; to brush gently; to comb (hair); to smooth down
watchful waiting; careful supervision
reopening; resumption; restarting
to bend forward; to stoop; to bow
grandmother; old woman; female senior citizen
to let out; to utter; to issue; to send; to leave; to depart
to listen repeatedly; to listen again; to ask a question in return; to ask again; to ask for a repeated explanation
remarkable ability; mastery; brilliant technique; go-getter; resourceful person; wizard
taciturn; reticent; quiet; silent; untalkative
unsociable; unfriendly; blunt; surly; curt; cold
suicidal act; self-destroying action; suicidal action
how many years; how long; what year
to kidnap; to abduct; to drag (someone to an event or place); to force (someone) to go (to)
instead of; in place of; as a substitute for; in exchange for; in return for; to make up for
certain; sure; no doubt; reliable; dependable
to be blown off; to be blown away; to disappear; to vanish; to rush; to hurry
speech; expression; wording; language
(I) will; (I) shall; let's; (I) wonder (if); might it be (that)
weak-willed; easily pressured; pushover
munching; crunching; scratching (an itch)
to talk about; to speak of; to recite; to chant; to indicate; to show
when one was a very young child; very early in one's life
filth (esp. excrement, feces, urine); muck; waste; garbage; dirt; dust
processing; dealing with; treatment; disposition; disposal
charge; duty; person in charge; connection; linking