self-hatred; self-abhorrence; self-loathing
heavy; weighty; heavy (feeling, atmosphere, etc.); serious; gloomy
fault; error; going poorly; being disadvantageous; un-; non-
to push away; to thrust aside; to detach oneself from; to keep away from; to act coldly; to do without emotion
to cling to; to hang onto; to rely on; to depend on; to implore; to entreat
being startled, surprised or afraid; panic; trepidation
solitude; loneliness; isolation
to abandon; to fail; to desert; to forsake
to stay on (e.g. at one's friends house); to remain in the same neighborhood
to impose (a tax, fine, etc.); to levy; to assign (a task, duty, etc.); to give; to set
creak; squeak; creaking; discord; strife; friction
decline; fall; decay; withering
(public) notice; attention; public eye; public gaze
dark clouds gather; threatening signs emerge; trouble is afoot
joy; delight; rapture; pleasure; gratification; rejoicing
disagreeable; unpleasant; adverse; unsympathetic
indifferent; half-hearted; dispirited; listless
audience (with a superior, e.g. nobility)
to keep company; to look after; to entertain; to play (a game) with
correspondence (to); equivalence; suitability; coordination; dealing with; coping with
grinding of the teeth; involuntary nocturnal tooth grinding; bruxism; grinding one's teeth out of anger or vexation; gnashing one's teeth; gritting one's teeth
to worry about; to be worried about; to fret about; to not know what to do; to be at a loss (as to what to do)
to stand (still) a while; to loiter; to stop
right arm; right-hand man; right hand; right-handed pitcher
as one wishes; the way one wants; to one's satisfaction
to closely resemble; to suit well; to match well; to go well with
to throw at; to throw something at a person; to throw a person down
passion; temper; irritability
subject matter of a painting; art supplies; art materials
to get angry; to get mad; to tell someone off; to scold; to be angular; to be square
nonsense; no meaning; meaningless
rubbish; trash; garbage; refuse
to leave something as it is
haze (esp. in spring); mist; dimness (of sight)
(place of) refuge; escape; exit; way out; shelter; hiding place
several years; a few years
to torment; to pain; to inflict (physical) pain; to harass; to cause (emotional) pain; to afflict
to train; to teach; to acquire (information); to learn; to stock; to stock up on
generosity; magnanimity; tolerance; length and capacity; measures
uniform; equal; even; common; ordinary; usual
crunching; chewing or crushing something hard; hard and crunchy; very skinny; emaciated