it is I who should say so
lecture attendance; auditing
calmness; composure; presence of mind; stability; steadiness
self-torturing; masochistic
mental; spiritual; emotional
to become frightened; to be frightened (of); to be scared (of)
load; baggage; cargo; burden; responsibility
to pull oneself together; to collect oneself (after a failure); to regain control (of oneself)
Chinese "Hairy Head" constellation (one of the 28 mansions); Pleiades; Seven Sisters
a matter of course; what is to be expected; par for the course
abdomen; belly; womb; one's mind; one's real intentions; courage; nerve
to look away (from); to avert one's gaze; to disregard; to ignore; to escape (from); to turn away (from)
to put a stop to; to put a hold on; to put the brakes on; to call a halt to; to block; to shelve
summons; subpoena; citation; summoning (a spirit, demon, etc.); evocation; invocation
complicated; complex; intricate; confusing; difficult; troublesome
(starting) from nothing; from scratch
bashfully; hesitantly; fidgety; restlessly; squirming; wriggling
no, not like that (but like this)
trembling slightly; quivering softly; swaying gently; softly; springy
to weather (a storm, rough seas); to ride across; to get through (adversity); to weather; to load completely (e.g. books on a shelf, people or luggage in a car)
suitable; proper; appropriate; perfunctory; half-minded; sloppy
unskillful; poor; awkward; imprudent; untactful
hokora; small wayside shrine
... all over again (repeating the same failure)
to pick out; to single out; to select; to extract; to draw out; to pull out
(practical) experience; personal experience; hands-on experience; first-hand experience
whispering into a person's ear
moment by moment; hour by hour
feather; plume; wing; shuttlecock (in badminton)
gravity; gravitation; gravitational pull
yoke; constraints; oppression
to jump on (a horse); to jump onto (a bus, train, etc.); to jump into (a taxi)
to pull out; to draw out; to pick out; to take (a sample); to steal (the contents of something); to pilfer
to decide to; to pretend that; to make a practice of doing; to make it a rule to
mischief; prank; mischievous; naughty; pastime; hobby
way (of doing); manner; method
showing no fear, even of God
you can't make an omelet without breaking eggs; a small sacrifice may be necessary to solve a more pressing problem