to cross one's mind; to occur to one
to be exhausted; to be tired out; to be worn out
explanation (e.g. for one's actions); excuse; justification; defense; defence
to go out and away; to leave
wife and children; (arch.) wife
discouragement; despondency; dejection; disappointment
until now; till now; up to now; up to the present; so far
frustrated (over a failure, humiliation or injustice); annoyed; chagrined; (bitterly) disappointed; bitter; vexed
to detain; to check; to restrain; to stop
to chase; to run after; to pursue; subsequently; following that; (and) then
to pile up; to heap up; to stack up; to repeat many times over; to go through repeatedly; to accumulate
one by one; each; every; at intervals of
regret; repentance; remorse
the past; bygone days; one's past (that one would prefer remained secret); past (tense); preterit; previous life
to become stronger; to grow in intensity; to grow violent; to invite contributions, etc.; to solicit help, participation, etc.; to recruit (e.g. soldiers)
at least; at most; (even) just
to confide; to reveal; to disclose; to lay bare; to speak frankly; to open (one's heart)
pump-priming; rousing; stimulation
past middle age; nearing old age; near-elderly; age 40
to notice; to realize; to be attentive; to be scrupulous; to regain consciousness; to come to (one's senses)
to turn (towards); to face; to head to; to go towards; to allot; to allocate
to wield; to brandish; to display (one's knowledge); to show off; to abuse (one's power); to manipulate someone
half a lifetime; half one's life; one's life so far
one's later years; final years (in life)
to bite; to chew; to gnaw; to fumble one's words (esp. during a play, broadcast, etc.); to falter with one's words; to crash against (e.g. of waves); to break onto (shore)
in order to do; for the purpose of doing; must; should
nodding (in agreement, with approval, etc.); repeatedly nodding and dozing off; suddenly (dying); deep (flavor, flavour, color, colour, etc.); rich
inside one's heart; in one's mind
to put effort into; to strain; to put strength into; to put forth effort
to have a hole; to be pierced (with a hole)
to inhale; to breathe in; to suck up; to swallow up (in a crowd, whirlpool, the darkness, etc.); to suck in
consciousness; becoming aware (of); awareness; mano-vijnana (mental consciousness, cognizer of sensory information)
water tank; cistern; fish tank; aquarium
puzzled; perplexed; quizzical; dubious; suspicious
dead person; (the) deceased; (the) dead; casualties
called; named; as many as; as much as; all ...; every single ...
suspicious-looking; shady; questionable; dubious; fishy
reprimand; rebuke; reproach; scolding
thoroughly; completely; severely; harshly; (arch.) scattered; (arch.) disconnected
irritating; irritated; frustrating; vexing; (feeling things are) not quick enough; (feeling) too slow-going
and yet; despite this; but even so; but even then; however; nevertheless