understanding and acceptance; spiritual awakening; a heart that understands truth; (feeling of) resignation
self-deprecation; self-derision; self-mockery; laughing at oneself
the past; bygone days; one's past (that one would prefer remained secret); past (tense); preterit; previous life
always; constantly; at all times; habitually
begging for one's life; pleading for one's life
to kill; to slay; to suppress; to block; to suppress (a voice, feelings, etc.); to hold back
equality; impartiality; evenness
to go mad; to lose one's mind; to get out of order; to go amiss; to go wrong (of a plan or expectation, etc.); to fall through
utmost limits; extremity; limit
to serve as a reference; to provide useful information; to be helpful; to be informative; to be instructive
study; diligence; working hard; experience; knowledge; discount
what is it (that); the meaning of something; what something is about
depressing; dark (e.g. story); grim (e.g. expression); irritating; annoying; tedious (work, person, etc.)
to hit (someone); to strike; to make (a speech); to give (an address); to gamble
place; spot; field; discipline; occasion; situation; scene (of a play, movie, etc.)
to guess; to sense; to presume; to sympathize with; to sympathise with
to cut into (a conversation); to interject
vigilance; caution; alertness; precaution; being on guard
mother; mom; wife; you (of an elderly person older than the speaker); she
often; again and again; over and over again; repeatedly; frequently
visit (to someone affected by illness or misfortune); call; letter of inquiry; letter of sympathy; dealing (a hit); striking (a blow)
hospital; clinic; doctor's office; doctor's surgery; infirmary
school route; street used by students going to and from school (esp. on foot)
skipping school or work (without a good reason); playing truant; playing hooky
one day; (on) a certain day
stealthily; secretly; in secret
sickroom; hospital room; ward
home environment; family environment
prevailing view; common opinion; general consideration
rare; uncommon; new; novel; fine; nice
dad; daddy; papa; sugar daddy
washing machine; (clothes) washer
unpleasant; revolting; feeling sick; feeling unwell; uncomfortable; annoying
society; the world; the times
common occurrence; everyday occurrence; not an uncommon case; normal thing; everyday affair
time (three times, each time, etc.); times
to miss (e.g. a chance); to lose; to set free; to let go; to fail to ...
willingly; voluntarily; of one's own accord
to express (orally); to put into words; to say out loud
to worry (about); to fuss (over); to be careful (about); to pay attention (to); to take (good) care of