embarrassing; embarrassed; ashamed; disgraceful; shameful
expertise; experience; knowledge
self-analysis; autoanalysis
insertion; incorporation; infixing
authenticity; credibility
unwillingly; reluctantly; against one's will
debauchee; fast liver; libertine; hell-raiser
bad person; villain; scoundrel; wrongdoer; wicked person
conflict; complication; troubles; discord
story of one's experience; recounting of one's experiences; narrative; testimonial
secretly; in secret; unseen; unobserved; inwardly; in private
evil deed; wrongdoing; crime; misfortune; calamity
state of mind; mentality; psychology
operation; management; handling; manipulating (to one's benefit); manipulation; influencing
suspicious-looking; shady; questionable; dubious; fishy
on purpose; deliberately; intentionally
to summon; to call (e.g. phone); to convene; to invoke (e.g. subroutine); to call; to open (e.g. a file)
writing (an essay, prose, etc.); composition; formal writing with little real meaning
every day; daily; day after day; days (e.g. good old days)
certain; unmistaken; evident; obvious; beyond doubt
disturbance; trouble; ups and downs
old-fashioned; archaic; antique; antiquated
trouble; troubles; worry; distress; sorrows; anguish
style of writing; manner of writing
to draw or pull something towards oneself (e.g. chair)
excessive self-consciousness; excessively self-conscious person
to place on (something); to give (someone) a ride; to give a lift; to load (luggage); to carry; to send out (on the airwaves, etc.); to deceive
to trace (drawing); to follow; to imitate; to copy; to reproduce
(I) think (that); (I) have a feeling (that); (I) fancy (that)
to begin to write; to begin writing; to begin to draw; to begin drawing; to begin painting
unreasonable; unnatural; impossible; forcible; forced; excessive (work, etc.); immoderate
even if not; even without
to get irritated; to get annoyed; to be on the edge; to fret; to lose patience
how can (one) do something
being at cross-purposes from the start; getting off on the wrong foot; (lit.) doing up one's buttons wrongly
unable to read the situation; unable to pick up on the mood (e.g. of a conversation)
air; atmosphere; mood; situation; someone with no presence; someone who doesn't stand out at all