to bear a grudge against; to resent; to blame; to curse; to feel bitter towards
mixture; jumble; cord made by entwining threads of various colours
torrent; rapid stream; violently rushing stream
to check; to stop; to keep back
desperation; despair; self-abandonment
nasty; disgusting; detestable; unpleasant; disagreeable; creepy
face; looks; vestiges; trace
thought; imagination; mind; desire; wish; love
viewing and treating as one; regarding as the same; equating one thing with another; identification
hatred; abhorrence; loathing; detestation
to wander; to roam from place to place
to be overawed; to be overpowered; to lose the mental battle
wintry moon; a winter month
to bark; to howl; to howl (e.g. of the wind); to roar; to yell; to cry
pathetic; sad; sorrowful; grievous
any and every thing; altogether; lock, stock, and barrel; the whole shooting match; the whole kit and caboodle; without reserve
clear insight; resignation (to one's fate); acceptance
unrelated; irrelevant; unconcerned; unconnected
whitewashing; glossing over; lip service; deftly finishing up; putting on the final touches
speaking without thinking; words spoken without much thought
one parent; single parent
ordinary; common; commonplace; mediocre; unremarkable; undistinguished
studying under; looking up to; apprenticing oneself to
history of; experience of
to open one's eyes wide (in anger, surprise, etc.); to goggle at
teaching; instruction; teachings; precept; lesson; doctrine
unusual event; strange occurrence; strange phenomenon; something abnormal; change (for the worse); accident
emotional scars; mental trauma
to fall ill; to suffer from (e.g. a disease); to have something wrong with (e.g. an inner organ)
several years; a few years
astonished; shocked; amazed; astounded; aghast
unpleasant feelings (e.g. hatred, disgust, revulsion, fear)
to well up (of tears, anger, joy, etc.); to surge up (within oneself); to rise; to feel nauseated; to feel sick
to corner; to drive to the wall; to run down; to track down; to chase after
to yearn for; to long for; to follow (someone); to idolize (for virtue, learning, status, etc.)
to persist in; to carry out; to have one's own way; to push through; to carry through
to begin to open; to come out; to smile broadly; to come apart at the seams (clothes)
tear gland; lacrimal gland
finally; at last; ultimately; in the end