loser; failure; underdog; unmarried and childless older woman
to shake; to waver; to tremble
difference; variation; difference
difficult; tough; formidable; redoubtable; stubborn
clothes (esp. Western clothes); counter for doses of medicine, gulps of tea, drags of a cigarette, etc.
to not take seriously; to take lightly
destruction; disruption; (application) crash
to tear up; to tear off; to rip up; to separate (e.g. a couple); to disrupt (a relationship)
superficial; half-hearted; shallow
to make a display of; to show off; to flaunt
so; like this; in this way
to that extent; to that degree; so much; so
there; over there; genitals; private parts; that far; that much
to become frightened; to be frightened (of); to be scared (of)
to be certain of; to have faith in; to believe completely; to trust (someone completely)
death; decease; (arch.) death penalty (by strangulation or decapitation); (an) out
little girl; maiden; young lady; (arch.) female between 17 and 20 years old (ritsuryo period)
sly; cunning; sneaky; crafty; unfair; dishonest
to cross one's mind; to occur to one; to flash into one's head
to be smeared; to be covered
hesitation; indecision; vacillation
painful; heartrending; trying; oppressive; suffocating; miserable
in an instant; instantly; in a moment; instantaneously; in the twinkling of an eye
purification; cleanup (e.g. of politics); purge
pain; ache; soreness; damage; injury; wear
sublime; noble; high-minded
to give birth; to bear (child); to lay (eggs); to produce; to yield; to give rise to
to give up; to abandon (hope, plans); to resign oneself (to)
remnant; fragment; fraction; odd sum; halfway; half-hearted
to look out on; to overlook; to face (a situation, crisis, etc.); to meet (e.g. death); to deal with (an issue); to attend (e.g. a function)
difficulty; hardship; trouble; infeasibility; inability (to carry out)
to be disappointed; to be dejected; to be downhearted; to feel exhausted; to feel drained
nothing but; none other than
willingness (e.g. to do something); eagerness; motivation; inspiration; determination; high aspirations
despite; in spite of; not worrying about; without fear of
ultimate weapon; one's final trump card
(giving) instruction; initiation
wearing nothing but an apron; being nude except for an apron
choices; alternatives; options
thankfully; fortunately; luckily; mercifully
one night; all night; overnight; one evening