particle indicating that the speaker is trying to recall some information
shut-in; stay-at-home; hikikomori; social withdrawal; shunning other people
junior high school; middle school; lower secondary school
poor; low-grade; load; pack; packhorse
style; manner; way; after (period of time) again (e.g. meeting again after a year); for the first time in (period of time)
very; greatly; immense; enormous; serious; grave
as a child; when one was a child
to pretend to be tough; to put on a brave front; to whistle in the dark; to bluff
November; eleventh month of the lunar calendar
complex; inferiority complex; complex (of buildings, facilities, etc.)
to hold in one's arms (e.g. a baby); to embrace; to hug; to have (a thought or feeling); to hold; to harbour (suspicion, doubt, etc.)
type; kind; type (of person); (ideal) type; typewriter; typing
expressing one's mind; speaking out
anxiety; uneasiness; worry; apprehension; fear; insecurity
to come true (of a wish, prayer, etc.); to be realized; to suit (e.g. a purpose); to meet (wishes, ideals, etc.); to match (implies competition); to rival
to hang down (from); to dangle; to be within one's reach; to dangle (before one's eyes); to be completely reliant on; to be entirely dependent on
to sound; to ring; to resound; to echo; to roar; to rumble
cowardly; timid; easily frightened
soft sound; dampening (of sound)
slovenly (appearance, work, etc.); sloppy; untidy; weak; feeble; weak-willed
to complain; to make a complaint
gem; jewel; precious stone
to collect; to assemble; to gather
tightly (hold, squeeze, etc.); firmly; forcefully (e.g. push); hard
to be wounded; to get injured; to get hurt feelings; to get damaged; to get chipped
worn-out; ragged; crumbling; dry and crumbly; falling (in drops or clumps); scattering
exactly; nicely; to a tee; to be fitting
large pink (Dianthus superbus var. longicalycinus); woman who displays the feminine virtues of old Japan
atmosphere; mood; a certain air; presence; (Earth's) atmosphere
to yearn for; to long for; to follow (someone); to idolize (for virtue, learning, status, etc.)
to hug someone close; to hold someone tight; to embrace closely
to separate; to part; to divide; to keep apart
the good fortune to have been born male
to be used up; to be run out; to be exhausted; to be consumed; to come to an end
to go along; to walk along; to follow