helpless; forlorn; hopeless; unpromising; lonely; discouraging
dumbfounded; in mute amazement
to spit out; to eject; to dump
putting one's life on the line; staking one's life (on); risking one's life; life and death situation
one; same (mind, path, etc.)
pain; anguish; distress; suffering; hardship
self-torture; masochism; inflicting damage to oneself
sensation; feeling; tendency; propensity
execution (e.g. of a plan); carrying out; practice; action; implementation; fulfillment
force; unit; corps; squad; troops; party
to go out and away; to leave
bringing certain death; deadly; knockout (blow)
to turn; to shift; to alter; to distract
until then; till then; to that extent; the end of it; all there is to it
to keep within limits (e.g. spending); to restrain (e.g. emotions); to control; to hold back (e.g. an enemy); to check; to curb
self control; self restraint
look (esp. an angry or upset look); expression
very; greatly; much; just about to; almost; very nearly
to rant and rave; to raise hell
tumult; great noise; clatter; hustle and bustle
on good terms with; on cordial terms with; getting along well with; to make friends with; to be good friends with; to get along with
to touch; to come in contact with; to receive (e.g. visitor); to attend to; to receive (news); to get; to encounter
to be lacking in options; to be too few
sensitivity; sensitiveness; sense (of ...)
vindictive; tenacious; persistent; spiteful; vengeful
to hold one's tongue; to shut up
while; during; performed in this condition
youth; springtime of life; adolescent
as always; as ever; though it's always the case
overflowing; effusive; exuberant; bountiful
outstanding; excellent; exceptional; preeminence; distinction; extraordinariness
to stab; to thrust (into); to plant (in the ground); to stick upright
trace; tracks; site; remains; scar
freely; at liberty; at will; as one likes
admirable; commendable; praiseworthy; laudable; brave; heroic