secret; private; surreptitious
that day; the very same day
abuse; ill-treatment; maltreatment; mistreatment; cruelty
on and after; as from; hereafter; thereafter; since
the past; bygone days; one's past (that one would prefer remained secret); past (tense); preterit; previous life
to line up; to put in a row; to add (to a group); to accept (as a member of an organization, etc.); to link; to put together
to flatter; to curry favor with; to curry favour with; to flirt with (woman with a man); to make eyes at (a man)
ugly; unattractive; unsightly; unseemly
to wake up; to awake; to awaken to (instinct, ability, perception, etc.); to become aware of; to come to one's senses
to ward off; to brush away; to fling off; to drive away
jostle; struggle; scuffle
intention; plan; belief; assumption; estimate; estimation
to pile up; to accumulate; to estimate
doubt; suspicion; misgivings; scruples
where; which; anyway; anyhow; sooner or later; eventually
outlet (e.g. for water or gas); market (for something); outlet (e.g. for excess energy); vent (e.g. for emotions)
something like ...; something called ...
to feel nauseated; to feel sick
to bite into (e.g. rope into skin); to cut into; to eat into; to encroach; to be wedged (i.e. underwear pulled from the back, driving it between the buttocks)
in conflict; incompatible; out of harmony; running counter; mutually exclusive; clashing with
to have two things (at the same time) (e.g. good and bad points); to also have something (in addition to something else)
(mental) agony; anguish; suffering; distress
to carry on; to go on with one's life; to keep alive; to stay alive; to survive
perpetual youth and longevity; immortality
growth; development; growing up; growth (of a company, the economy, etc.)
cowardly; craven; unfair; mean; sneaky
diminutive; dwarfish; pygmy; narrow (e.g. thinking); small
before one knows; unnoticed; unawares
faithful; devoted; loyal; honest; true
yearning; longing; aspiration; adoration; admiration
(animal) feed; fodder; pet food; bait; lure; enticement
to eat; to drink; to receive (e.g. a blow); to be on the receiving end (of something undesirable); to undergo (trouble)
to make matters worse; besides; what's more; in addition; on top of that
intention; wish; purpose; mind (to do)
willingly; voluntarily; on one's own accord
different item; different lot
business; thing to be done; something that should be performed; information that should be conveyed
godsend; lifesaver; timely offer; windfall
management; administration; operation; running (business); conducting
smuggling; contraband trade