after an interval of ... years; for the first time in ... years
to say everything one wants to say; to exhaust a topic
after a long time; for the first time in a while
to wash; to cleanse; to inquire into; to investigate; to purify (one's heart); to lave (e.g. shore)
daily routine; daily work; daily lesson
daytime; during the day; time from sunrise until sunset; diurnal period
to feel blocked (of one's chest or throat, due to grief, anxiety, illness, etc.); to feel pressure; to feel pain
processing; dealing with; treatment; disposition; disposal
to talk to oneself; to mutter
right; correct; proper; righteous; just
as it is; plain (truth); bare; undisguised; unvarnished; unexaggerated
burden; load; responsibility; bearing (a cost, responsibility, etc.); shouldering
to force; to compel; to coerce; to press; to impose
to behave like a spoiled child; to behave like a spoilt child; to fawn on; to depend and presume upon another's benevolence
nothing but (this); no more than (this); none other than
to breathe out; to breathe; to tell (a lie); to use (foul language); to vomit; to throw up
interpretation; explanation; reading; construction
hazy; misty; foggy; hazy feeling; uncertain feeling; feeling gloomy
to clear up; to clear away; to refresh (e.g. spirits); to be cleared (e.g. of a suspicion); to be dispelled; to be banished
to disappear; to vanish; to go; to leave; to die
in a daze; absent-mindedly; dimly; hazily; with a roar (of flames); with a whoosh
madder (esp. Japanese madder, Rubia argyi); madder (red color)
to be dyed; to be tainted; to be infected; to be stained
inattention; absent-mindedness
thinking; thought; idea; notion; intention; plan
to go by; to cross; to pass by; to flash across
to recall; to remember; to recollect
unskillful; poor; awkward; imprudent; untactful
(feeling of) indebtedness; feeling obliged
to give (esp. to someone of lower status); to bestow; to provide; to afford; to assign; to cause
to give up (an idea or plan); to abandon; to refrain from (doing); to change one's mind
meddling; meddlesomeness; nosiness; meddler; buttinsky; busybody
I, myself; one-self; by one-self; even I; even one
stupid; meaningless; worthless; hopeless (person, situation); beyond help; beyond saving
hopeless; futile; no use; beyond help; cannot be done
foolish; nonsensical; absurd; ridiculous; trifling
to play with (a toy, one's hair, etc.); to fiddle with; to toy with (another's emotions, etc.); to trifle with; to do with something as one pleases; to appreciate
to sink; to go under; to go down (e.g. sun); to set; to feel depressed; to become subdued
I'm home!; I'm back!; now; at present; just now; a moment ago
surely; certainly; without doubt
inconsequential; indifferent; not worth worrying about; whatever; whichever; I don't care