even if I say so myself; for me (to do such a thing)
shabby; dull; cheap; lackluster; uninspiring; depressing
to use abusive language; to curse; to call someone names
reality; actuality; practice (as opposed to theory); truly; really; bhutakoti (limit of reality)
to jump up; to spring up; to move around; to bounce up and down; to pound (of one's heart, e.g. with excitement); to throb
unreliable; uncertain; indefinite; unclear
unable to resist; unable to suppress
riding; ride; spread (of paints); -seater (e.g. two-seater); (getting into the) mood; (entering into the) spirit
tune; tone; vein; mood; condition; state of health
expectation; anticipation; purpose; intention; others' opinions of one; speculation
light (i.e. not heavy); feeling light (i.e. offering little resistance, moving easily); light (i.e. of foot); effortless; non-serious; minor; slight
knowing only too well; being fully aware of
will; probably; may; I think; surely; I hope
to fight against; to oppose; to face
powerful; strong; forceful; reassuring; encouraging
reliance; trust; faith; confidence
(something) has never occurred; to have never done (something); such a thing has not happened; never happens; there is never a time when
nonsense; no meaning; meaningless
bulging; swelling (e.g. with water); loose-fitting or baggy (clothing); bubbling; foaming
out of character; unlike one
timid; weak-kneed; fainthearted; bearish (e.g. market)
self-hatred; self-abhorrence; self-loathing
to bear; to stand; to support; to withstand; to be fit for; to be equal to
to feel dizzy; to have blood rush to one's head; to lose one's cool; to be obsessed; to be infatuated; to become conceited
then; and then; and; if so; because then; if that's the case
completely honest relationship; hanging out naked (e.g. at a public bath)
scrubbing hard; scrubbing clean
to refuse; to reject; to inform; to give notice; to ask leave; to excuse oneself (from)
book; document; calligraphy (esp. Chinese); penmanship; handwriting; letter
calling repeatedly (e.g. someone's name); pronouncing successively (usu. repeating a syllable with voicing, as in "tsuzuku")
on the way; en route; in the middle of; midway; halfway
stabbing to death; putting out
worry; concern; anxiety; care; help; aid
to be lost (e.g. luggage); to be missing; to be used up; to be run out; to disappear (e.g. pain); to be lost (e.g. a dream, confidence)
very; much; greatly; a lot of
enjoyable; fun; pleasant; happy; delightful
scrubbing; getting grime off
very hard; with utmost effort; as hard as one can; with all one's might; for dear life; eagerly