at this juncture; after all this time; at this stage; now
lonely; lonesome; solitary; desolate
extremely important; essential; vital; crucial
maintenance; preservation; improvement
unable to do (as one wishes); able to do only with great effort; almost impossible to do; beyond one's control; not always turning out as one wishes; not going the way one wants it to
insufficiency; deficiency; shortage; dissatisfaction; discontent; complaint
motherland; fatherland; native country
grim; stern; stark; heartless
older brother and younger sister
trouble; harmful effect; evil influence; implication; involvement
custom; convention; tradition; mores; conventional practice
to gulp down (a drink); to slurp
to die; to lay down life's burden
to lie on top of one another; to be in a heap
to wait for a favorable chance; to wait for a favourable chance
to end one's life; to commit suicide; to end a life; to kill
to take along; to hold in the hand; to hang (e.g. from the shoulder or waist)
vomit; vomitus; vomited matter
excretion; discharge; excrement
stink; bad odor; bad odour; stench
to drift; to float; to waft (e.g. a scent); to hang in the air; to be in the air (e.g. a feeling or mood); to wander; to walk around aimlessly
poison suicide; suicide by poisoning
father and mother; parents
ugly; unattractive; unsightly; unseemly
to bear; to stand; to support; to withstand; to be fit for; to be equal to
pity; sorrow; pitiable; pitiful; alack; alas
funny; comical; humorous; ridiculous; silly; absurd
inner thoughts; real intention; at heart; deep down; inner center (centre)
I; me; personal (affairs, etc.); private; selfishness; partiality
to empty; to vacate; to evacuate
bewilderment; perplexity; embarrassment; discomfiture; bafflement
to respond; to satisfy; to accept; to comply with; to apply for
dying; death; dead; useless; damned