to end one's life; to commit suicide; to end a life; to kill
yearning; longing; aspiration; adoration; admiration
headgear (esp. one made of cloth); hood; kerchief; tokin (headgear worn by yamabushi)
painful; sore; cringy; embarrassing
to lose; to miss (a chance, opportunity); to lose (a loved one); to be bereaved of; to concede (goals, points, etc.)
certain; sure; definite; reliable; sound; solid
with a feeling of relief; with a sigh of relief; deeply (sigh)
dangling; hanging; suspended; pending; half done; in limbo
to collect (e.g. one's thoughts); to get in order
or rather (say); or better (say); or perhaps I should say; or, how should I put it; I mean
sorting; arrangement; liquidation; settlement; retrenchment; curtailment
to attach; to join; to furnish (a house with); to wear; to put on; to keep a diary; to make an entry
chance; start; opportunity; cause; reason; excuse
until then; till then; to that extent; the end of it; all there is to it
uninterested; unconcerned; plain; light; flowing gently
sudden; abrupt; unexpected; unforeseen
to grimace; to make a wry face; to contort one's face
to pull out; to take out; to lead out (e.g. a horse from a stable); to summon (e.g. to court); to withdraw (money); to draw
note left by a dead person; suicide note; testamentary letter; posthumous work
to live; to exist; to make a living; to subsist; to be in effect; to be in use
to give up; to abandon (hope, plans); to resign oneself (to)
pupil (of the eye); one's eyes
large drop (of rain, sweat, tears, etc.); large grain-like object (e.g. grape, cherry)
tear; tears; lachrymal secretion; sympathy
to spill over and fall; to scatter (petals, leaves, etc.)
hope; wish; aspiration; (bright) prospects; expectation
god of death; death deity; Death; Grim Reaper
beautiful woman; (a) beauty; belle; good-looker
lovely; wonderful; charming; enchanting; nice; great
another person; other people; unrelated person (i.e. not related by blood); outsider; stranger
painful; bitter; tough; difficult; cruel; harsh
as (much) as possible; as (much) as one can; wherever practicable; if possible
help; rescue; salvation; solace; (religious) salvation; (Christian) grace
to rack one's brains without getting anywhere; to mull over endlessly; to be unable to make up one's mind
to sound; to ring; to resound; to echo; to roar; to rumble
use; application; employment; utilization; utilisation
prohibition; inhibition; ban
with a start; in surprise; suddenly (realize, remember, etc.); all of a sudden; puffing (air); with a puff