confused; disordered; faltered; incoherent; inconsistent
soliloquy; monologue; speaking to oneself
image of a bride dressed in her wedding gown (wedding kimono, etc.)
to turn one's head; to look over one's shoulder; to turn around; to think back (on); to reminisce; to look back (on)
to cough violently; to have a coughing fit
really; truly; indeed; good grief
one jump; one flight; (at) once; (in) one stroke
order; sequence; procedure
something like ...; something called ...
first of all; to begin with; probably; most likely; more or less (satisfactory); on the whole
number (in a series); (one's) turn; watch; guard; rank; standing; bout
irritating; irritated; frustrating; vexing; (feeling things are) not quick enough; (feeling) too slow-going
important; significant; precious; valuable; careful
elementary level; beginner level
compilation (of a text); editing; volume (of a text); completed literary work
to end; to come to an end; to finish; to complete; to finish doing; to be past its (one's) prime
married woman; another's wife
(looking) blankly; vacantly; dazedly; (staring) in puzzlement; with a look of amazement
being adopted into the family of one's bride
association; socializing; socialising; fellowship
to weather (a storm, rough seas); to ride across; to get through (adversity); to weather; to load completely (e.g. books on a shelf, people or luggage in a car)
senior (at school, work, etc.); superior; elder; older person; predecessor
to leave (behind); to leave (undone); to not finish; to save; to set aside; to leave (to someone, esp. after one's death)
complex; complicated; intricate; mixed (feelings)
to express (orally); to put into words; to say out loud
to be offended; to get angry; to be stuffy; to be stifling; firmly (shutting one's mouth)
to expand; to swell (out); to get big; to become inflated
how; in what way; why; for what reason; cannot possibly; no way
transformation; abnormality; sexual perversion; pervert; metamorphosis; transformation
to ill-treat; to bully; to torment; to be tough on (e.g. one's body); to treat harshly
to become pale; to turn pale
bitter smile; wry smile; strained laugh; sarcastic laugh
beginning; outset; first; onset
worst; horrible; horrid; in the worst case; if worst comes to worst
than; in comparison to; rather than; over; above
to carry on one's back; to be burdened with; to take responsibility for; to have (something) in the background; to be in front (of something); to be conceited