painful; bitter; tough; difficult; cruel; harsh
mumblingly; grumblingly; tardily; slowly
to be worried; to be troubled
anniversary of a person's death; monthly return of the date of someone's death
anniversary that celebrates author Dazai Osamu's birthday, and incidentally, the day his body was found after he was involved in a double suicide
doubt; question; suspicion; dubiousness
dangerous; risky; awful; terrible; terrific; amazing
to play a role; to serve a function; to play a part
to lie down; to throw oneself down
tea ceremony; Way of Tea; sadō
flower arrangement; floral art; ikebana
(one) letter; (one) character
with a rustling sound; (rummaging) around
to slip out; to sneak away; to break into the lead; to get ahead; to begin to fall out (e.g. hair); to break out (of a loop)
to make use of aizuchi; to back-channel; to throw in interjections to show that one is paying attention
one (thing); one piece; one item
exterior; outside; outer; external; lateral
liking; taste; fancy; wish; desire; choice
excellent article; fine item; rare beauty; masterpiece; gem
to penetrate; to pervade; to spread
weak and small; inferior in strength and size; minor; young; youthful
to be too much for one; to find unmanageable; to be beyond one's control; to not know what to do with
to read (someone's) thoughts; to guess what (someone) is thinking
I feel that ...; I feel as though ...; I have a feeling that ...; I have the impression that ...; I think that ...
how much; how many; to what extent
much less; to say nothing of
to push into; to cram into; to stuff into; to break in; to burgle; to burglarize
fragment; broken piece; chip; ounce (of truth, conscience, etc.); trace; shred
the person in question; prominent figure; distinguished person; that person
to load (a gun, etc.); to charge; to put into (e.g. emotion, effort); to include (e.g. tax in a sales price); to hang over; to shroud
thanks; gratitude; appreciation; thankfulness
anything and everything; just about everything
to be contrary (to); to go against; to infringe; to violate; to disobey (an order, teachings, etc.); to defy
sound of voice; vocal sound
calm; quiet; gentle; moderate; reasonable; amicable
real intention; motive; true opinion; what one really thinks
to leak out; to escape; to find expression; to give vent; to leak out; to be divulged
without sparing time for sleep