to stand firm; to hold out
embarrassing; embarrassed; ashamed; disgraceful; shameful
dissent; disagreement; disapproval; objection; refusal
stealthily; secretly; in secret
memories; recollections; reminiscence
yearned for; longed for; missed
back country; remote countryside
to earn (income); to make (money); to score (points, victory); to gain (time); to work hard (at one's job); to labor
anonymity; using an assumed name
tobacco; cigarette; cigaret; tobacco plant (Nicotiana tabacum)
illness; disease; bad habit; weakness; fault
for the first time; only after ... is it ...; only when ... do you ...; first time; (one's) first
to refuse; to reject; to decline; to prevent (from doing); to deny (e.g. access); to block
to be grateful; to feel grateful; to be thankful
to hug someone close; to hold someone tight; to embrace closely
whole life; a lifetime; all through life; (the only, the greatest, etc.) of one's life
solitary life; wretched abode
to do nothing but; to spend all one's time doing
deity; god; Amaterasu (as an enshrined deity)
on purpose; deliberately; intentionally
handwriting; calligraphy specimen; example of penmanship; holograph
to destroy; to demolish; to disturb; to put into disorder; to relax (one's pose); to make oneself at ease; to break (a bill)
winding; meandering; wriggling; wiggling; waving; swaying
mischief; prank; pastime; hobby; playing with (a lighter, etc.); fooling around with
collar; color; colour; hair colouring (coloring); calla (variety of arum lily)
instead of; in place of; as a substitute for; in exchange for; in return for; to make up for
to be lucky; to be in luck; to be attached; to have; to be included
to stop up; to close up; to stand in the way; to obstruct; to occupy; to fill up
not the time for; not the place for; far from; anything but; ... is out of the question; ... isn't the word for it
to roll about with laughter; to laugh heartily
to be mad; to go mad; to go insane
(sound of) laughter; laughing voice
Japanese spaniel; Pekinese; chin
convulsion; cramp; spasm; tic; twitch; fit
completely using up ...; running out of ...; exhausting ...
to catch; to capture; to grasp (e.g. meaning); to perceive; to captivate; to move (one's heart)
astonished; shocked; amazed; astounded; aghast
serious look (on one's face); straight face