to be embarrassed; to lose face
wobbling; tottering; wavering (e.g. over a decision); dithering; boiling up; dizzily
firm; steadfast; indomitable; unswerving; invincible
to feel like it; to get to think that way; to become so minded
to go against; to oppose; to disobey; to defy
conquest; subjugation; overcoming (a difficulty); conquering (e.g. a mountain); mastery (of a skill)
back; reverse; rear side; height; stature; ridge (of a mountain)
intention; inclination; mind; idea; wish; view
to exchange glances; to look at each other; to postpone; to put off; to contrast; to compare
for now; for the time being; for the present; though not quite satisfactorily; after a fashion
how; in what way; in what manner
I would rather; I would as lief do; strong preference
irresolution; indecision; vacillation
going out (before burning completely); dying out; fizzling out (e.g. of a plan); falling through; coming to nothing
unlawful; illegal; unreasonable; outrageous; unjust
9th day of the month; nine days
distant place; faraway location; far away
deterioration; getting worse; worsening; aggravation; degeneration; corruption
to push away; to push aside; to shove
shout of joy; cry of pleasure; jubilant comments
noisily; clamorously; incessantly (complaining, pestering, etc.); going on and on; loudly (crying); wailing
that being the case; in that case; if that's how it's going to go
to hit (e.g. with a car); to knock down; to reject; to eliminate; to refuse (e.g. a request); to deny; to flip
to die; to draw one's last breath; to breathe one's last
restorative; stimulant; pick-me-up; alcohol; sake
whispering into a person's ear
to abandon; to give up on; to desert
sick person; patient; invalid
to call; to summon; to send for; to call together
verge of death; dying moments
I, myself; one-self; by one-self; even I; even one
to consult with; to discuss; to confer; to deliberate
else; in addition; on top of that; furthermore; further; besides
to expose; to disclose; to lay bare; to confess
subtle; delicate; difficult; complex; doubtful; questionable
self-centeredness; self-centredness; selfishness; egotism; egoism
your native country; your hometown; my home country (i.e. Japan); countryside; country; (arch.) daimyo's territory (Edo period)
to scatter; to sprinkle; to spray; to lavish (money, charm, etc.)
several years; a few years
merit; success; meritorious deed; achievement; accumulated experience
to get torn; to tear; to rip; to be broken off (of negotiations, etc.); to break down; to collapse